welcome to my blog!

this is where i blog about whatever is on my mind. sometimes i'll talk about my day, sometimes i trauma-dump, and other times i dump lore about myself that no one really needed or asked for XD. it's kinda like my virtual diary that anyone can read. enjoy getting a small glimpse into my life!

entry #5 07/21/26

helloooooo! i have to go to bed soon but i wanna write a quick blog entry. i have to wake up super early and drive to pennsylvania with my mom so we can get back home by 8pm. ive been so nauseous all day. i just wish my sleeping meds would kick in. alright well im gonna try laying down now so maybe i can sleep. peace.

entry #5 07/12/26

hiii.. omfg. another tw for heavy topics. i was literally just looking at my pinterest profile and apparently now there's a "people you may know" section, and of course the second person on that list was my motherfucking ex bsf. ughhhhhhh god i hate that dumb bitch so much. and trust me i have my reasons, she used to literally just sit there and tear apart my biggest insecurities for fun and then when id be like "hey whoa thats going a little too far" she'd just say "oh im jokinggggg" and continue doing it. then she'd just take whatever aspects of me she liked and just.....steal them. not like "oh im inspired by your style and im gonna incorporate it into mine" she'd flat out just copy me directly. she also literally put my life in danger MULTIPLE times (e.g. saying ill be "totally fine" in a car while her brother was driving us around drunk as all hell, trying to convince me to be a trip-sitter for her and her friends in a house where NO ONE TOLERATES ANY DRUG USE, ACTUALLY using me as a trip-sitter the first time she smoked a joint - then had a panic attack cause she cant handle 2 puffs of pot - and THEN gets mad at me after i got her home and settled in when i didnt stay at her house and babysit her while she slept all night, using me as an immediate scapegoat when anyone found drugs in her room meanwhile I ONLY SMOKE POT & NICOTINE AND IM DEFINITELY NOT LEAVING THAT SHIT AT HER HOUSE CAUSE SHE'LL USE IT ALL, etc.) oh yeah and she also manipulated me into buying her vapes for over a year when i was literally more broke than she was :]. anything that reminds me of her immediately sends me down a spiral of ptsd flashbacks. eugh. anyways byeeee.

entry #5 06/23/26

hello! im kinda bored rn lol. im currently downloading Hello Kitty Online and its taking forever so i figure i'll write a blog entry while i wait! i had an account that my mom made for me when i was only a few years old on the original Hello Kitty Online back in maybe 2010ish but i havent played since 2012 or 2013 when the servers died down a lot. it was one of the first games i remember playing as a kid (along with my dearly beloved LPSO). AHH SORRY TO CUT THIS SHORT BUT IT FINISHED DOWNLOADING ILL UPDATE YALL LATER. peace! EDIT: yall it works im gonna start screaming

entry #4 06/17/26

hi :] sorry its been such a long time since i wrote anything here. this entry is gonna be a somewhat heavy trauma dump so buckle up and TW if you dont wanna read about heavy topics/hear me complain. so much has happened i dont even know where to begin but ig ill just start chronologically. so a few weeks back my ferret passed away (she was with me for nearly 10 years) and that hit me like a goddamn freight train. im still trying to process it and not doing a great job of it. and then the other day i noticed the fact that my childhood "best friend" literally talks to me like im a toddler compared to her other friends and im so fucking done. she constanly tells me that shes "got no friends whatsoever" and "never ever leaves the house" yet i go to a "party" (and not the fun kind) at her house the other day and shes got 10 of her friends there and theyre all telling me about all of the past times theyve hung out with her and done this that and the other thing. I SWEAR ALL THIS BITCH DOES IS LIE. like im not asking to be invited to every gathering or anything close to that, it'd just be nice to maybe be invited to hang out with her and her friend group every now and again. idk. (ps if either of my friends are reading this THIS IS NOT ABOUT YOU)

entry #3 04/24/26

HIIIIII ITS BEEN A WHILE :000. i managed to pass my GED test today and i cannot comprehend how the fuck i did it. i genuinely want to cry tears of joy but then ill mess up my lashes xD. i know its technically not the biggest achievement ever - and i only managed to pass the math section by a few points - but its so surreal knowing that at around this time 6 years ago i was saying i probably wouldn't be here to graduate now, yet here i am. it's a very bittersweet feeling. i kinda feel like ive lived 9 different lifetimes in the span of 17 years. anyways, that's all for now. peace!

entry #2 03/17/26

hi again! im leaving for a 3-hour road trip tonight (*^‿^*). i'm going to PA to visit my great-grandmother. i really want to buy a shelf to display my doll collection and my figure collection. i keep seeing all of these gorgeous doll collections on pinterest and thinking to myself "man, i really wish my doll collection was as diverse as all of the pinterest girlies' doll collections" and then it suddenly dawned on me "dawg.... youve been buying/collecting dolls since 2010.... THATS 16 YEARS AT THIS POINT" and then i realized that my doll collection is a lot more expansive than i thought (and yes i meant expansive, not expensive). so yeah basically that whole ramble about doll collections is to justify why i want to buy a new shelf lolz. ok i think thats all for now, byeee! ☆*:.｡.o(≧▽≦)o.｡.:*☆

entry #1 03/15/26

hiiii! i styled my wig last night and it looks sooo good :P. me and my friend went to panera today. we also went to a toy store and i got a malibu barbie :0. ive literally wanted one since i was 4 but now i finally have one! so yesterday my mom was telling me that she doesn't like the way i've been doing my nose contour and so all last night i was really insecure, looking up photos of 90s and 2000s gyarus trying to figure out what the actual hell i was doing wrong . then, today i went out with my friend and ive never gotten so many compliments in my life. i think that was the universe telling me that im doing okay lol. alr bye for now! (ﾉ>ω<)ﾉ :｡･:*:･ﾟ’★,｡･:*:･ﾟ’☆